ericjames’ world

(This is one of my favorite songs…by nina)

I knew it was there
Though I tried to hide it
The feeling just kept on shining through
Haven’t known you that long
So I try to deny it
But the feeling was much too
Much too strong

Could this be love
Deep down inside
Tearing me apart
I feel it in my heart

Constantly, you’re on my mind
Thinking about you all the time
I can’t sleep no matter what I do
I just keep on thinking ‘bout you

Why do I feel this way
When I know you have someone
That you’re seeing each and everyday
Should I play this game
Of just being your friend but i know that’s not where I want it to end

How could this be wrong
When it feels so strong
Tearing me apart
I feel it in my heart
No I don’t want to start
No trouble
Between you and I and you lover
But I must tell you what I’m going through
Everytime you walk by
I see love in your eyes

May fini-fit ako noon na sapatos sa Converse. Okay lang ang presyo. Maganda
ang material. Astig ang hitsura. At kapag suot ko, astig ang dating . May
isang problema nga lang… masakit sa paa.
Pero cute kasi siya eh. Saka on sale. At sadyang matigas ang ulo ko. Kaya
ayun, binili ko.
Sa umpisa, okay lang naman. Keri ko. Saka masakit naman talaga sa paa ang
bagong sapatos. Pero habang lumilipas ang oras, lalong sumasakit. Hindi
siya meant sa pangmatagalang suot. Habang suot ko siya, parang gusto kong
umiyak sa tuwing humahakbang ako. Pagdating ko ng bahay, puro sugat at
galos ang paa ko. At ilang linggo din akong may peklat sa paa dahil sa
diyaskeng sapatos na iyun.
Kapag sa umpisa pa lang, alam mo na masakit na sa paa at hindi mo puwedeng
suotin ng matagalan, huwag mo nang bilhin. Bakit mo pa itutuloy kung alam
mong masasaktan ka lamang kapag sinuot mo?

Parang pakikipag-relasyon din iyan eh. Bakit mo pa itutuloy kong alam mong eventually ay masasaktan ka lang?

Lesson learned:
Kung sa umpisa pa lang, alam mo na masasaktan ka lamang sa bandang huli,
huwag mo nang ituloy. Baka mag-iwan pa iyan ng scar na hindi mo na maaaalis
kailan man.

How well do you know me

Just as superficial maybe

A stranger you never knew

Or a friend you thought you knew

Come, a  little bit closer

To see me far more better

But please not too near

For there are thoughts hidden inside me

That you must not see and hear

My world shines the brightest

At least, that’s what you see in my face

But there are times when in pours like hell

With tears that fill a well

I breathe the air of sigh

I smile even if I have to cry

But you’ll never see me cry

Oh no, I’l never let you try

For I have painted my own rainbow

Made from the prism of tears;

Rays of my shadow

So amid the mist of doubt

Wanders the land with a colorful mask

“A mask? Why wear a mask?”

You just might ask

To hide some  grief and imperfection

Anger, uncertanainty and indecision

And show you a  front that’s bright

Telling you everything is alright

Otherwise from me you might stay away

And I’d be alone,

Ill

be astray

No one seem to care

NO one seem to dare

To see the real me behind the mask

But what’s real or what’s not

Maybe it doesn’t matter that much

As long as I can make you laugh

And be closer when you need a friend

To cheer you up when you weep

Don’t judge me as a deceiver

Though I sounded like a pretender

But please understand me for my act

Its just the courage to be “me”

Is what I lack

I stumbled in land of yours

Surrounded by mountains  by seas and by walls

Should I ask you this thing

Promise to be honest in everything

How well do you know me?

Could you describe me as me?

The me you seldom see, 

which is the other side of thee?

what kind of fool i am ?

What kind of fool am I
Who never fall in love
It seems that I’m the only one
That I have been thinking of
What kind of mind is this
An empty Shell,
A lonely cell,
In which, an empty heart must dwell
What kind of clown am I?
What do I know of life?
Why can’t I cast away this mask of clay
And live my life
Why can’t I fall in love
Like any other guy And maybe the I’ll know
What kind of fool I am?
What kind of lips are these?
That lie with every kiss
That whisper empty words of love
That left me alone like this
Why can’t I fall in love
Like any other guy And maybe then I’ll know
What kind of fool am I.